Hard Evidence

“I’m so terribly, terribly sorry,” Seb says, his gaze sheepish as he drags a huge bag through the front door of the flat. He may well have a body in there: it’s that huge. “You’re here now,” I say, wrapping my arms around him, inhaling his musty woodland scent of clothes-he-walks-the-dogs-in. There’s toothpaste in there, […]

The Black Minutes*

Waiting for Seb. He calls: “I’m terribly sorry,” he says. “My TomTom lost its signal and I seem to be near Croydon and…” “OK, so what time do you think you’ll be here,” I say. Looking at my watch, I see that it’s two o’clock, the time that he was meant to arrive. “Well the […]

Look Back In Anger

“Hi darling. Have you booked flight?” I say to Arjen in a Facebook message. Need to know as am trying to arrange a dinner with my writing workshop group. “Yes I have,” his message comes back. “Woohoo! On the Friday!” I ask him. Arjen is of my faith, remember, so is fine to see him […]

Spring Awakening*

Suddenly, spring is in the air.  It’s mid-February and there may well be further cold snaps ahead, but on the walk to my bus stop this morning, the earth is awakening from its slumber.  There are purple crocuses out and a blackbird flies past with twigs in his beak: nest-building is underway.  And so, my […]

The Demanding Dead*

“I’m planning to invite you for dinner, do you eat Indian food?” the message comes through from MediaChap. “Yes!  My best food :)”  I reply.  “Would that be Wednesday dinner?” This is very exciting: MediaChap is going to cook for me.  Or maybe he is going to order a take-away, I think.  Hope not: don’t […]

Fifty Shades Of Grey

It’s not bad, the “Fifty Shades Of Grey” film. Not bad at all. Went to see it last night with low expectations, and actually enjoyed it more than expected to. Dakota Johnson as Anastasia Steele is great: funny, spirited, beautiful. The film looks very stylish: lush colours, shiny buildings. It’s directed by an artist: Sam […]

A Valentine Story*

“Any plans for the evening of 6th March?” The Facebook message says. It’s from Arjen in Amsterdam. Haven’t seen him since 18th October, just before my implant removal operation. “Don’t think so?” I reply. “Still have to show you my Galapagos pics,” Arjen says. “Yay! Are you coming to see me?” I say, and add […]

Wild At Heart

“Helllllooo Tanya,” Seb’s voice drawls in my voicemail. “I’ve just dropped some assignments off at college and…” Hitting ‘3’ to save the message – I love to listen to his voice again and again – I call back. “Helloooo,” he says, answering the phone. He sounds happy to hear from me. “Hi,” I say. “Sorry: […]

Gravity’s Rainbow

Ah, it is just so nice not to be miserable. Am writing this on the bike in the hotel gym in Stratford. That’s Stratford-upon-Avon. Obviously. Swans glide across my view: the gym looks out over the river. Boats are moored on the right of my vision and willows weep over the water. It’s light and […]