“Have set off,” Seb’s message comes through at 11.13am, “but will be after lunch arrival. A while after. Sorry xxx.” “That’s OK my love,” I reply, on my return from a bike ride with Dad. “The doubles starts at 2pm. I go back to flat to prepare for it.” Andy and Jamie Murray must win […]
“You can tell by his game that he’s worried: just the way he’s hitting the ball, the errors he’s making,” the commentator says. David Goffin, the world number 16, is a set and a break down to Kyle Edmund, the British twenty year old ranked 100 in the world. “He should be strutting around there […]
Seb still loves me, I think, and a warm glow suffuses my whole self. As long as we are together, nothing is that bad. Can’t wait to see him and cuddle him and talk to him. Can’t wait to cook him The Omelette. Haven’t managed to learn to cook any new dishes, but after […]
“Hello,” Seb says. It’s almost ten o’clock but my love is calling me! “My darling,” I say. “Hello. I miss you.” “Oh, my love, I miss you too,” he says. “It’s difficult, finding a time to call and, well, I set an alarm and I fell asleep and…” “I was worried that I hadn’t heard […]
The fields flash past. Am on the train home already. It’s a gorgeous hot day and the sky is a cloudless blue. Haven’t heard from Seb for a week. His last message was last Saturday. Hope that there is some innocent explanation for this: 1. He’s broken his new Thai phone. 2. He’s been kidnapped […]
“Face it, he’s not coming back,” the panther says as he sits on my windowsill, watching a squirrel on the bird feeder. “He is,” I say. “In a couple of weeks Seb will be back.” “And, even if he comes back for a bit, then he’s going to university. For three whole years,” the panther […]
Sitting in the park on my lunch break. So far, the alcoholics are avoiding me and have arranged themselves on the benches around the park’s edges, where they argue and swig from their cans. It is unseasonably cold but have removed my fleece so can sit on it – a fleece! In July! If am […]
“Hello lovely!” Seb’s message comes through at 7.35am this morning. “Happily ensconced in the forest. You won’t believe how fast the Bodhi trees I planted (less than two years ago) have grown. One was a cutting of about 6 inches tall which is now 8 foot!! Hope you’re well my lovely xxx” Ah he’s adorable. […]
“Arrived safe and sound, by the way xxx”. The message comes through from Seb at 12.45pm today. Am so happy to hear from him. Have been wondering whether or not he’s arrived. “Ah great. In Bangkok?” I reply, at 2.10pm when I see the message. Am at the parental home where there isn’t much phone […]
“What are your measurements, Tanya?” Seb says as he’s packing his huge rucksack this morning. “Is it OK if I leave this shirt here?” “Of course,” I say, taking the shirt from him. It’s my favourite one: big blue and grey checks and it feels soft. Am pleased that it will be here so I […]
Scars, Tears and Training Bras 